I Crave You...

I crave you
Knowing you are the venom
running through my veins
That feeling you create, listening to your moans
brings me to my knees.
Never felt it like this, so weak & under a spell.
Lock me up throw away the key to the outside world
Stay here & be with me.
Say you'll never leave
Say you'll hypnotize me
Command my attention when your presence is near,
keep me guessing & anticipating
Approach me with sternness & authority.
Your in control
I obey your every command.
You say you want to prepare me for a journey that
will take me to the highest of highs.
Layn there feeling a heartbeat between my thighs
Shit your like a drug that I do not want live without.
Wondering if I could ever completely give you up.
I crave you ….

Samai Aashir

Samai Aashir

7 years ago I formed a bond with you
feeling you kick & move
excited with anticipation of meeting you.
Wondering if I'll see any traces of those that came before us.

No fear of failure, just a fresh start
Vowing to never give up & steer you down the right path.
Seeing mistakes of my past & all of their uncertainties.

Watching you on this journey called life, while you
travel the path of manhood.
Look at my young “king” as my sister would say.
Strong, Proud, & free to dream

Oblivious to the intentions of the world & the limitations set
I instill Love, Knowledge, & faith
Qualities that no one can ever take.

Your efforts, could never anger or disappoint me
wanna see you shine, even if that means in my own demise.

Tough love I say
to be both parents is indeed difficult.
Knowing how to sooth your pain & punish you.
Understanding that you must come into your own
I push you to think outside the box, fearing that I may crush your imagination with honesty.

With a sense of pride I say to you,
you can do anything you put your mind too.
Mind over matter
Glimpses of your pictures I see a fire that lies deep within
A light that would make any woman smile.
Dimples set so perfectly I know that you are created with purpose.
Your abstract way of thinking makes you unique
There could never be another you.
You were sent to me I'm sure of it.
My purpose, my light, my reason for everything do
with hopes that you will one day learn it's not how I dress
that defines me as your mother.
Instead it's the love & guidance I show you.
Hoping that you will find all the answers to your questions.
Eagerly applying them as you see fit.
And proud to say that you are my son.

Anytime?

In a cold sweat I awake to the sounds of your screams. My heart is aching, in my dream I cannot save you. Now that I am wake it seems you are still too fear away. I leap up from our bed looking first in our room, then onto our kid’s rooms. With no sign of them or you I begin to really panic now. I feel my pressure escalating, sweat trickling down my back & down the crack of my ass. I ran to the window that overlooked the garage I saw your car still parked like you left it the night before. I stare at your car waiting for the answer to come to just as you had on that joyous winter morning. Suddenly I see the light from a cell phone appear in the darkness. I scream your name & began banging on the window profusely. I know you heard me, I heard my own echo, yet you never acknowledged I spoke. You went on as if I weren’t there. I jumped up & down waving my arms like a baby chick just learning to leave its nest. Still no reaction, I finally decide to go down to too what was going on. Why are you acting this way toward me? What did I do? How could you ignore me, thought I was special, different? As I ran to the end of the driveway I realized you were on your way back up the driveway. One not paying attention & two not caring, I stood face to face with the Hood of the Denali. I seem to be transparent it’s going right threw me. At that very moment I realized that I was not nor was I ever a good match for you. I consistently tried to save at times even from yourself. My heart aching is not of a broken one. Simply because you were too busy, almost like you were incapable of seeing me. Too busy looking past me while I looked for objects set in your way. Moving things in your path that would act as a distraction so you could focus. Focus on me for once. Is it hard to focus on me because you never see me only the things I do without explanation their done, Anytime? It’s difficult to see someone when you are consistently taking from them until there is nothing left to see.

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I thought that you would never leave my side

You told me you loved me & supported everything I did

Be it good or bad

“She” made me feel as if no one else mattered,

The breath of fresh air I longed for.

A chance for a new beginning filled with hope, dreams, and inspiring ambitions.

Countless dozens of flowers & cards sent to your job just because you were special 2 me.

The wonderful trips spent by just the two of us.

Whether we were taking long walks in the park or visiting places that were new to us

I put my priorities aside to help deal with yours

All these things I did just to bring a smile in your eyes.

 As the weeks turn into months & years even

The breath of fresh air became stale & suffocating.

My hope became unhopeful,

Dreams turned into nightmares, waking in cold sweats

The ambitions that were once inspiring seem unexciting and lifeless.

Although my side is empty you never left, I grew up & realized that I too deserve all these things I gave so freely to others. I decided to believe what you showed me without adding my own visions of who I thought you were.

I left to love Me.

Fuck Me To Tears...

Fuck me so good that I forget my name

Forget who I am & where I'm from

Fuck Me To Tears...

Let them fall upon my toes & form puddles.

I need rain boots, this shit is getting deep.

Fuck me till my clothes are drenched in tears.

Take them off & let them dry by the sun.

Fuck me to tears...

Let the tears flow down my cheeks& fall onto the pillow as you kneels above me

Pumpn me, grabn me, thrustn into me.

Fuck Me To Tears...

My eyes are swollen shut from cryn tears of how good you're fuckn me.

I don't care, I don't need to see, just keep fuckn me to tears.

A Poem Inspired by "Your Hands" by Marsha Ambrosius

I wanna grab you & suck...

Suck til I have all of you inside me

Feel me sallow & digest you into my heart & sole.

Your Hands feeling, caressing my inner parts until you

reach your final destination at my heart & rest...rest.

Rest your heart in mine& let's synch our rhythms.

Boom, Boom, Boom-Boom, Boom-Boom....Breath...

Breath til your breaths become mine,

& mine become yours.

Let's connect spiritually, physically,mentally & sexually .

So that we are forever in each others thoughts.

Become my lips to listen to them whisper I LOVE YOU in your ears.

As our bodies melt together & stay. Molded....entangled as we lay holding each other tightly, gravity will never force us apart. We'll stay as one for as long as you can stay sucked into my world.

The Game

 In the beginning there was honesty, trust & fear that we were doing the right thing
The two of us had so many dreams of things we wanted to do.
We often shared with one another no matter how weird or frivolous.
I was afraid at first but then you made everything escape me &
For once I felt free. Free enough to expose my natural self to you without doubt of what you’ll see is the true me.
We start what I call the game, when you want everything to be perfect, & see no pain.
It never rains. Just the luminous rays of sun shine.
The smell of spring, the language of the birds in the am after leaving you lay refreshed in our bed. The ideas of what gifts to bare, soaring like the eagles in the air. Fulfilling your every need is what’s important to me.
I’ll drop the earth, and replace you on my axis if I can continue to keep you spinning with me.
Soon our visions of each other change, trying desperately to hold onto each other’s dreams. Some how they are swayed, tangled, & revamped into energy that no longer governs us. What’s become is not us, it’s not what we both longed for.
 Let’s restart this game reignite our flame and join our worlds without all the pain. 

Me

I am not the perfect person you think I am

I am not your knight in shining amour

I am not as strong as I always pretend to be

I am me; the only me I can be.

Me that loves so hard that it hurts

I wish I could forget all the pain, but the pain reminds me that I too have been hurt.

Maybe not in the same likness of you, but pain is pain.

Iam me that longs to be loved not only by my peers but from me as well.

A love that is unconditional, through all of my fears, thoughts & insecurities.

Would you still be there even on my bad days, when I’m at my lowest thoughts?

To have, to hold, to love me the way I give love to you?

With tears in my eyes or rage in my heart just to say everything will be ok?

I am not the perfect person you think I am

I am not your knight in shining amour

I am not always as strong as I pretend to be

I am me the only me I can be…..