Panic

Reflecting eyes traveling familiar places distracted heart beat racing. Panting, sweating, shortness of breath Fear seeing truth. Hide behind these eyes Altered visions confused minds damaged tearful memories, forced & replaced.

Journey

Ready to start this much needed change.
Jumpn all the way in & prayn to the universe never to
return to that sorrowful place.
Embracing the confidence in my walk,
pep in my step gliding on the river
to see recreate the image of man walking on water.
above the bullshit that was being placed at my my feet
bounding me to the ground.
Breaking through my clutter
to find what I've been looking for.
My perfection
My truth
My right to be happy
in every sense of the word.

Auntie

It's almost been 2 yrs since you went home to rest
can still feel you near,
whenever a friend is needed or listening ear
U were there
You always kept it real wit me,
U explained the change that a young lady must experience
to follow her journey into womanhood
Saw your face at my games cheering for me all the way
It was you that taught me to stand up for myself
It wasn't always easy for you to sit back &
let me find my way but you trusted I would & let me be.
Keeping your arms ajar when needed.
Realizing my selfishness
words could never replace you
memories set fondly in my heart.
Replaying our times together
hoping to hear your laughter,
watching you dance around the house
doin the “kid& Play” or the “Steve Martin”.
A classy kinda of lady
known & loved by everyone she met.
RIP Auntie

My heart choose you & now my mind won't let me forget. The memories are branded in my subconsciousness, leaving my heart burning for more. Heart & mind battle, my heart so hopeful even when my mind is saying forget it ; there's no chance. Call me silly but I am not willing to give up the battle that my heart sought to go after. Nothing you can do could ever change that. I may hurt or even cry but the fiery feeling still burns deep there. Sometimes I want to rearrange my heart & replace it with my mind, to see if I'll still come to the same conclusion. Free from the pain acting on sheer experience of lessons I've learned. Recognizing the steps taken, careful not to make the same mistakes again. Traveling through a different path & it feels like a place I've never been. Intrigued I follow this journey, wanting to explore it. After all I know what my heart choose & where it left me. Choosing to listen to my mind, for it will tell my heart when its ready this time.

Let Me Convince you

Can you stay with me tonight? Com'n I know it's a lot but I promise it'll be worth you wild. Start by greeting you with rose petals that dance around your feet. Where you'll find me running a steamy bath filled with that Lava like steam aroma of Lavender Chamomile. Awaits you a chilled glass with a frozen strawberry playing peek o boo at the rim of your glass. Drug of choice....Oh wait that'll be me... Candles strategically placed on the floor along the bathroom wall. Some even tubside.
The imagine that comes to mind while watching you swirl your loufa over your back reminds me of a tub filled with chocolate whipped cream. I insist you lay back as I raise your leg & began to relieve the pressures your feet. Feel the warmth of my hands as I drift down your calf onto your thigh. Legs exhausted from bouncing your frame around all day. But only if you let me convince you to stay with me tonight?

I Crave You...

I crave you
Knowing you are the venom
running through my veins
That feeling you create, listening to your moans
brings me to my knees.
Never felt it like this, so weak & under a spell.
Lock me up throw away the key to the outside world
Stay here & be with me.
Say you'll never leave
Say you'll hypnotize me
Command my attention when your presence is near,
keep me guessing & anticipating
Approach me with sternness & authority.
Your in control
I obey your every command.
You say you want to prepare me for a journey that
will take me to the highest of highs.
Layn there feeling a heartbeat between my thighs
Shit your like a drug that I do not want live without.
Wondering if I could ever completely give you up.
I crave you ….

Samai Aashir

Samai Aashir

7 years ago I formed a bond with you
feeling you kick & move
excited with anticipation of meeting you.
Wondering if I'll see any traces of those that came before us.

No fear of failure, just a fresh start
Vowing to never give up & steer you down the right path.
Seeing mistakes of my past & all of their uncertainties.

Watching you on this journey called life, while you
travel the path of manhood.
Look at my young “king” as my sister would say.
Strong, Proud, & free to dream

Oblivious to the intentions of the world & the limitations set
I instill Love, Knowledge, & faith
Qualities that no one can ever take.

Your efforts, could never anger or disappoint me
wanna see you shine, even if that means in my own demise.

Tough love I say
to be both parents is indeed difficult.
Knowing how to sooth your pain & punish you.
Understanding that you must come into your own
I push you to think outside the box, fearing that I may crush your imagination with honesty.

With a sense of pride I say to you,
you can do anything you put your mind too.
Mind over matter
Glimpses of your pictures I see a fire that lies deep within
A light that would make any woman smile.
Dimples set so perfectly I know that you are created with purpose.
Your abstract way of thinking makes you unique
There could never be another you.
You were sent to me I'm sure of it.
My purpose, my light, my reason for everything do
with hopes that you will one day learn it's not how I dress
that defines me as your mother.
Instead it's the love & guidance I show you.
Hoping that you will find all the answers to your questions.
Eagerly applying them as you see fit.
And proud to say that you are my son.